cold swim

I swam across weymouth harbour today and complelty froze and nearly blacked out but i came 7th out of the 50 in my group xxxx

I really love my perfect girlfriend and i cant wait to hold her close again xxxx slightly worried her parents are offering us comdoms though :/ xxxxx

she makes me so happy im never letting her go

i love you sj forever and always xxxxxxx

resoloutions

I have come up with my new years resoloutions : the first is to not be such and idiot towards SJ and not take her for granted and the second is to actully acheive somthing truely sensational in 2011 xxxx

I really wish i hadnt gone to aarons last night i was so bored and got practiclly no sleep xxx

I really love SJ and i cant wait till shes here xx i just wish i knew why she is so worried about meeting my family xxxx
i really wish we didnt have the distence but then again there is no one else id rather be with so it is worth while xxxxxxxx

i love you baby xxxxxx

im such an idiot

i upset sj by being stupid i wish i could just not make mistakes im such a failure and i wish i could just for once do somthing right xxxxx

i really really love sj and i always will and i cant wait to see her it will be amazing xxxxx

how do i stop the tears

I hate it when people get involved in things that dont concern them and try to split people up xxxxxx
I hate it when me and SJ argue it just feels like im gunna lose her and i cant deal with this pain again xxxxxx
I really truly love her more then she will ever belive i just people would leave us have our relationship and not try to break us up xxxxx

I love you babe and dont want to lose you i need you babe xxxxx

funny day

Today was so funny we went to a 5 aside football tournemount and came second i started daydreaming about sj lol and my coach was like scott you going on now and in the end he had to chuck a bottle over me to make me focus lol xxxxxxx

Im wrapping up sjs christmas present and sent her card today i really cant wait to see her at christmasit will be amazing xxxxxx

I really love you babe and i always will because you kind caring loving funny perfect gorgeous and MINE xxxxxxx

All the snows gone now so i guess its back to school tomoz :( xxxxx

hmmmmmmmm

I dont really know what to make of today i had a singing thing which went okay i guess
then me and dad looked at cars for me which was really fun i then froze my self in the snow xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i then acted like a complete idiot watched paranormal activity scared my senseless and then starting to worry sj was gunna dump me because she seemed in a weird mood xxxxxxx

I really love her and cant lose her  xxxxxxxx

i really cant wait till christmas xxxxxxx

work all day

I went to a college morning to look at a footy course which is pretty amazing tbh its four days a week and i get a coaching cetificate and a place in a new team getting paid a minum of £30 a week xx

i can then go on to bournemouth and do my coaching degree xxx and live with sj xxxx

i then was working with dad and earnt aload of money so i can now afford the second part of sjs present xxx

I really love you babe your stuck with me now xxx

snow day

today was so fun we had such deep snow and it was really deep and we had a massive snowball fight which was awesome xxx

i really miss sj and cant wait to see her at christmas xxx

i really love you xxx
your perfect xxxx

im so happy xxx

busy week

i really cant wait for this week to be over because its so busy and i cant talk to sj much ive got working at youthy tomoz at 7 and might be going out with mates friday xxx at least after that im free for ages so can talk to sj more xxxxxxxxxx

I love her so much and really never want to lose her xxxxx i really worry too much xxxxxxxxx
Its just she means more to me then anybody ever has and im so used to losing people close to me xxxxxxxx
she really is perfect xxxx

Ive never been this happy and ive never felt this way before and i really cant to have her back in my arms and to be able to kiss her xxxxxxxxxx

I LOVE YOU BABE XXXXXXXXX

funny day

Today was so funny at footy adam trying to show off dan passed it to him and he slipped up and put it over the goal when it was open and he was in the 6 yard box we dont know how he did it xxxxx

then we were in dorch on bikes just riding around and had a good convo about sj xxxxx

I really love her and were going really good at the moment and ive found a good present xxxxxxxxxxx

I miss you babe and cant wait for christmas xxxxxxxxx

painful

Ow i slipped and landed with my head on concrete today which was really painful xx
I really love SJ and im never letting her go shes stuck with me now xxxx
I really cant wait for christmas and our plans xxxx
Ive never felt this way before im so in love i cant belive it xxxxxx
football was a bit of a fail today we lost 7-5 and arsenal lost 3-2

I really love you babe xxxxxxxxx

over thinking

Im just so tired at the moment the film yesturday was really bad and we had to come out early because adams uncle went into hospital xxx

Then SJ was being weird with me which has set me off worrying about losing her again xxx
I just feel like shes going off me she wont tell me any off her problems now so i cant be their for her xxxx

im also worried about adam because he got dumped yesturday so was really upset so we went to the cinema then he found out his uncle has gone into hospital so not good xxx

I REALLY REALLY LOVE SJ
and i dont want to lose her xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ouch

Ow my knee was really hurting today and when i said about it my mate dan turned round and said i deserve
it for being cocky when i play football some mate he is xxx

I had an intresting convo with SJ last night about how far we wanted to go together xx
I really love her and cant wait till christmas and our plans xxxx

im sitting out footy tomoz so im just watching the team play without me xx
its for the best need to recover fully for importent games in the next 2 weeks

I REALLY REALLY MISS SJ XXXXXX
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABE XXX

average day

I have really done my leg in its really swollen and im struggling to walk in alot of pain but will be fine xx
I really love SJ xx Ive never felt this way before im hers forever xxxxxx

i had a good day with adam expecially at break and lunch playing with the cricketball and alex asked for ago he threw it and it went straight through our head masters office window while he was having a meeting so alex has a bill for a new window now

I really miss SJ and hope shes free and allowed to come down at christmas because i need to see her xxxxxxxxx

I love you babe xxx and you never going to lose me xxxxx

good day

I had a really good day today lol xxxxxx
Our maths exam today was so funny our teacher asking us if we were ready and adam turning arouund and saying yes because he knows his 2 times table lol our teachers face xxx
Food test with alex with awesome just laughing as he shouted out that the answer was always chicken nuggets lol we got some weird looks xxxxx
Then ICT with adam just looking at idea for SJs christmas present and drinking coke lol xxxxxx
I cant wait to get my hats tomoz xxx
I really really miss sj xxxxxxx

I LOVE YOU BABE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Plans

Christmas really is going to be amazing this year ive got a football tournement in between when we break up and the day xx
Then SJs coming down and we have some very nice plans and im looking forward to discovering just how dirty she can be xxx

I got a football match today though id rather stay home and talk to SJ xxxx
Maths exam tomoz fun fun xxx ill proberly fail it but oh well xxxxx

I really miss SJ and cant wait till christmas and when i can see her xxxxxxxxxxxx

I LOVE YOU BABE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

good day

today was so funny lol mr mathews telling me now to hit alex with my book lol because its too thin hit him with the bible instead lol
adam falling over playing footy at lunch lol
 i really love sj and things are going great again im so happy lol xx
badminton tomoz should be funny i cant wait to see sj at christmas xx

bad day

ive had the worst day in the world and i hate my life

everyone is trying to break me and sj up
now ive been suspended from the school sports teams for not focusing
everything seems to be going wrong right now
sj is really up set because shes had a bad day and some really bad news

i really love her and just hope i dont lose her
everything is going wrong and my life is just crashing down around me
and i dont know what to do

best days of my life

omg ive just had the best few days of my life with sj she is amazing kind funny gorgeous loving and perfect
she is such a perfect kisser xxxxxx
im never letting her go no matter what
im glad shes mine xxx

2 days

this weekend started of great i went down to bridge water yesturday for my training for napal and it was so fun i was put into a team with sam and ben and we had to build a rope bridge and ben and sam went across it first and it snapped and they ended up in the water it was really funny till they came and gave everyone a hug and then chucked me in lol xxx it was freezing in our tent it was a 10 man tent with 3 of us in it

ive been so worried thinking im gunna lose sj all day my mum got worried because i didnt speak from when she picked me up at 10 till bout 3oclock xxx
i really cant wait till wednesday and to just spend time with sj and be able to do my favroite thing in the world hug and kiss her xxxxx

that it for now i wanna get back to talking to her xxx

i love you babe xxx

cant wait

I really cant wait for wednesday it will be amazing because i get to see sj again xx
she really does mean the world to me and i hope i never lose her xx
shes the most cute funny gorgeous perfect loving caring girlfriend anyone could have xx
it really will be amazing to kiss her and hold her close xx
i cant belive how lucky i am to have her xxxx

im working at and anoymous night club tonight so wont be able to talk to sj on msn but ill text her alot then tomoz night im in bridge water for the night but ill text her then
then i can talk to her online monday night tuesday morning and tuesday night and then im off to cambridge to see her xxx

i really love you babe xxxx